Okay so maybe this won’t be resolved and over with by the time school starts .. but whatever. It’s not like I can really do anything about it. Time to just go with the flow and hope for the best. 

Did you really just ….. okay. Shows how much you still care. 

I kind of miss spending the holidays up in Boston, MA with my aunt, uncle, and cousins. It was so fun and definitely memorable. If only I could go back to semester break of 2009. I miss having Dunkin’ Donuts every morning, or even sometimes at 3AM. I miss eating there, whether it be feasting at some nice restaurant, or a simple cheesecake from The Cheesecake Factory, or even a juicy cheeseburger with fries and a shake from Friendly’s. I miss having an adventure everyday. I miss the beautiful view from the 50th floor of a skywalk observatory there. I miss playing in the snow that’s about 3+ feet in length .. while here in GA, snow barely reaches 4 inches. I miss sitting there, wrapping gifts late at night on Christmas eve. I miss that Christmas-feel when everyone, including myself, was opening all sorts of pretty, decorative gifts from under the Christmas tree. I miss having those random celebrations/parties, and eating some of the town’s best cake. I miss watching CSI with my sisters and cousin late at night, every night. I miss being out late at night, just joyriding in the darkness. I miss Kayla. I miss her forcing me to watch Disney movies with her. I miss playing games with her. I miss seeing LeAnna’s face in her little crib. I just miss everything. I wish I was able to relive that break from 2 years ago. If only.

What’s with me, I swear. It’s like I purposely like to put myself in a bad mood. 

You may say or do the dumbest things .. but that doesn’t change the fact that you’ve been a great friend. 

It’s sad how things came to be. Really sad. 

That’s all that comes out your mouth. 

or something really wrong. 

& I’m relieved. It doesn’t really feel like it, but it’ll probably kick in Monday or Tuesday, after the weekend. I’m ready to sleep-in as much as I want, and hopefully get something productive done. There’s just one big worry on my mind .. but hopefully, by some chance, I’ll be reassured of it. But yeah, I hope everyone have a great break! :)

Ugh, this cannot happen. I need some hope. 

I should’ve thought about the consequences ..

It’s not because what happened was serious .. it’s just the fact that it’s a rather uncomfortable subject for me to talk to you about. Plus, I prefer not to speak of it anyways. 

There’s always that one song that brings back so much memories. 

grace-huynh:

It’s better just to forget about some things rather than spending endless hours thinking about it.

Only some are worth keeping and cherishing. 

Now that that’s over and done with, moving on with life.

Okay. Now that’s just sad. 

Am I really just a second option? 

awysha:

I don’t like thinking about it. But I do, all the time.

I already have expectations … which sucks, cause most likely, I’m going to be disappointed at the end. 

So I guess that changed my perspective of you a bit. Maybe you’re not as bad as I think.

Why does this bother me so much. 

Why? I don’t know really. It just does. I don’t like what’s happening. It’s obviously going to progress into something bigger. Can you just stop? 

Today was pretty productive. I feel accomplished. But anyways, I’m tired. Going to eat, shower, then sleep! So glad tomorrow’s Friday.